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1. I will be going to Perhentian tomorrow night. Yeay! At last, a proper holiday with the boyfriend and some friends. I deserve this treat, seriously. And yes, I am super broke but luckily its a budget holiday and boyfriend eagerly wants to pay for it so yeay.

2. Everyone's talking about the passing of MJ. RIP MJ. I'll always love your billy jean, black and white and beat it.

3. I have registered CIMA. So yeay. Finally.

4. I am getting engaged in a month time. Woot.

5. I am so falling in love with Coldplay and Lenka.

6. I don't think I'll be going to this year's Urbanscape but Ili's band would be performing and I think this would be their first major gig after the Laundry's gig last year. So yeah, maybe, just maybe I'll dropby.

7. I need to find a proper stable job. Pronto. But can I manage? With the bis, CIMA and a real job? Heh.

Okay, nak tidur.

hippieeee!

Life is mundane. Routine. Cyclical.
But hey. that is life!

It is not rosy all the way.

You just have to embrace it or live with it thinking that you don't deserve this kind of life and fret about it. Be grumpy, sarcastic, mad at everyone else because you think this is not the life you deserve.

I chose to embrace it. I chose to be happy. Because life is such, and people will never really be grateful, no matter what they have. The only thing for me to do is not aggravate myself, and live my life as it is, with what I have, which when I step back and look at, is more than enough to keep me happy.

So hey, be happy. If not, damn it. Stop blaming everybody else and be a hippie.
Weeeee!

love piece

I am happy. Well at this moment lah kan.

It has been confirmed that the date would be on 1st August.
And the meeting between two parents went well. Alhamdulillah.

Gosh. It really is happening.

And to top it all, my friend, my 1st ever bestfriend called me after 2 years of silence.

void

It's already half of 2009 and somehow I feel like I have achieved nothing much. Sadly, when I know I should feel proud of myself (with the business, relationship-wise). Entahlah. There's like this extra huge void that has been left empty for too long and the worst part is I don't even know how to fill it. Maybe betul kata mama, 'sembahyang tu cukupkan, baru rasa lengkap.'

And its not that I am unhappy. I am happy. Maybe.

Eff Graduation

And oh, Happy Graduation Hanah.
Heh.

After 3 long fucking years (when all my friends only took 2 years), I did not went for my graduation day yesterday, no pictures taken with friends with the mortar board and fucking rob, and no fucking over-priced flowers for me.

After 3 long fucking years. I am done.
And I am not exactly proud of it.

Fuck.

Finally 101

So he may not propose me with a ring in my cake with a quartet behind us singing our song (do we even have ‘our’ song?) in some fancy place and perhaps not on his knees with roses in his hands while promising thousand things and saying beautiful words but we were at ‘our’ place, overlooking the entire Shah Alam city and I am sure he did not expect me to be in the position of me bending to tie his shoe lace (which mind you, I playfully untie it before that). He pointed the ring box and asks me to open it and after a hesitant 1 minute, asked me the 4 words I have been meaning to hear from him. Finally huh?

And to make things even cuter, he did not even dare (I think) to put the ring on my fingers, instead I had to ‘try’ it on and it matched perfectly. And suffice to say, I was crazy embarrassed and I don’t know why but perhaps because it was not expected?

So yeah, the proposal may not be as perfect as I imagined it to be when I was 9 years old. And I hate being told by my grandma how Razi proposed Shikin in some fancy hotel with the ring engraved with their name and how there’s a quartet singing their song, but for some reason or for all the reasons that matters, it is just perfect for me. And hey, that is all that matters right?
So yes, his imperfections, our imperfections are the one that made this relationship perfect.

I love you.

random 103

1. Boyfriend is back. For a week already! I am so happy having him around. :) 1st day he got back, we checked into a hotel and gathered all our mutual friends and hung out together until dawn. Then for the next few days, he helped me around the shop and even accompanied me to the market. Yesterday, we hosted a friend's bachelor night. Today I met his whole entire family and sat down for dinner. It was soo sweet of him trying to compensate what he has left for the past 100 days, but so far, everything's going wonderful.

2. Fuck, I am beginning to despise a friend. I hope I could say it right in his face that he is a fucking insensitive moody bastard so that I wouldn't despise him this much! Only I know, when I tell him how he is effecting our relationship, he'll be even more insensitive and moody! The worst thing is, he is not even a close friend and I just go to know him recently. Maderfaker. And oh, a friend told me, when I don't like a person, it shows in my face. Heh.

3. Another close friend just got out from a relationship of 7 years. 7 bloody fucking years. Call her A. Anyway, I asked another friend of mine, B to go and be friends with A in a hope for her to forget about her ex. The thing is, I think they're going a bit too far. I am scared that one of them would get hurt in the process. Gosh. Apahallll la again aku TERjadi matchmaker?!

4. I am missing a very close friend. Someone that used to be there when the boyfriend was away. Hmm.

5. I hate doing what I am currently doing right now! Babi.

Ciao.