overhead overhead.

Lama tak update. Heh. Busy and plus there's not much to write but so many things to do.

I need to revise the cafe's menu. I need to study (Exam is on 24th Nov; for both paper!). I need to revise the cafe's financial structure. I need to pay my car. I need to pay the credit card's bill. I need to pay the cafe's water utility bills. I need to study study study!

Argh, mati ok macam ni!

Oh lovelies, Selamat Hari Raya. And sorry la kena block block ni. Mumzy dah jumpa this blog, AGAIN. Heh.

I miss my fiancee.

Oh and baby, Happy 24th birthday!

Will update something proper on my wishlist. :Dr

near the rainbow

Hey blogblog,

I am a bitttt optimist these few days. Thanks to some friends and the tunang. ;)

Well, things will be okay if I have these few people that meant a lot to me.

Thanks guys.

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Raya will be coming soon. Woot. Tapi sedih lah tahun ni probably tak dapat duit raya. Heh.

And sedih the tunang will not be here. :(

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I need to get an organiser! or that fricking cute moleskine.

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All that I have in my head to write is sooo sarcastic or soooo mulut laser. People would probably start calling me bitch all over again. Hence, I am not gonna write here anytime soon, unless it all just gets too juicy to tell ok. ;)

Good night lovelies.

Not a PMS.

God I am seriously hating my life right now. Seriously rasa nak bunuh diri. Terjun bangunan then esok bangun reset life baru. Heh.

There's so much to write but I often leave my laptop at Sambal2 jadi as the days went by, dah lupa dah apa nak tulis.

Met Sue and Zam just now and hilang kejap duka lara. Heh.

Fuck lah. I hate waking up tomorrow ok. Please, tidur je boleh tak sampai 3 bulan? Grr.

massive black hole

I don't know what I am feeling right now.

I really don't know what to write.

I am just bored beyond imagination.

I miss my fiancee, I miss my friends, I miss just being me.

I wouldn't be long till depression kicks in. Heh.

there he goes again

When a friend told me she can't stop crying that her boyfriend who was once my very good friend (I introduced both of them ok) will be going to Riyadh for six months I silently wondered, 'kenapa aku tak nangis masa my own tunang pun going away?'

Tak sedih ke? Sedih sangat-sangat. I can't imagine not having him around, not yet. But the glimpse of thoughts of not having him around is excruciating. Alone pergi pasar, alone at the shop, alone watching movie, alone having dinner, alone running errands. sigh.

Its not like I am not used to not having him around. He went away for work for 3 months last 3 months but this time its different because the last time, I've got few bodyguards (our mutual friends) to take care of me, accompany me, look out for me, but since the whole dramamama unfold, we kind of broke apart.

This time I am definitely alone.

Oh, back to the point that the friend cried and I did not. Does that show that I am a strong girl, or am I feelingless?

Ah, esok je lah nangis. Heh.

going away.

He is going off again this Wednesday. And he only got to know it today.

I am sad.
I am going to miss him.
I love him.

Here goes the 100 days countdown again.

I am thirsty, cranky but happy.

Well hello blogblog. 

Here we go with the numerical updates again;

1. I got engaged last Saturday. Yeay. 1 Aug 2009. Tapi today (5 Aug 2009) I think I misplaced the ring. How fucked up can that be. I woke up without the ring on my finger and because Hola was waiting downstairs for me, I couldn't look for it thoroughly. Damn it. I hope its still in my room. Please please please let it be in the room. 

2. About the ring. The fiancee bought me a sweet simple ring. Because with the environment I work in, the ring has to be as practical as a knife. -If you know what I mean. But because his mom thinks its too small - the bling, she replaced it with another ring. After 2 days only did we realize it was not the same ring he bought for me. And the best thing is, I love the new ring! Haha. I mean I loved the old ring but this one is nicerrrr.

3. Fuck its soooo hot here in this shop. Random.

4. Uncles and aunties were so helpful. They came, gubah the hantaran, cooked, mingled etc. Basically they did all the dirty hard work. It was so sweet of them. I am glad and blessed to have families like them.

5. Friends, and I mean real friends came. And that is all that matters. I don't need hundreds of friends to come to the thingy only to be happy with few of them. 

6. My 1st CIMA class starts this Sunday. And shit its going to be a 6 hours class with 1 hour break in between. I hate it ok.

Oh pictures, malaslah. Siapa nak tengok, go tengok facebook. heh.

p/s: I love you even more now.

p/p/s: Hola's going back to OZ soon. :(