random 102

1. Hola came back for a week to manage and oversee the cafe and I am super glad that she was here. Did some small doa selamat. Just sent her to the airport with a heavy heart because now I can not rest and wake up a little late than usual.

2. The cafe is Alhamdulillah going okay. Not that great yet, but for now I guess we're actually doing okay.

3. Went to Bandung with mumzy. Shopped a lot on laces. Mum is super excited when I told her on our flight that I am probably/hopefully getting engaged soon. So she basically borong the entire kedai. Well, that's my mum. She just need a reason to shop.

4. Boyfriend is still uncontactable after 6 days. Gosh, I really miss him.

5. I hate airport. Too much memories. Why did I ever dated aviation people?

6. I went for my first brazillian wax. Too much info? Whatever. And oh, it effing hurts!

7. Went for massage, scrub, milk bath, body mask, sauna that only costs 300,000 rupiah. Equivelant of RM120 in some fancy spa place. Super cheap.

8. I've lost 4kgs so far. Woot. Another 3kgs to go.

9. Oh, had some random checkup last week after I got this awful period pain. Apparently I have multicyst ovary. Mumzy said that I have to get married soon.

10. I actually had fun with mumzy. Seriously.

17 days left.

Another 17 days to go.
Please make the time go faster.
I really miss my boyfriend.

Gosh. So many things happening but seriously I have no time to tell yet.
One day. One day.

Good night.

Love note: Have enough courage to trust love one more time.. one more time.

two?

1. God, I hate this waiting game.
Boyf usually calls at 12am every night and now that he has gone sailing, its been 3 days since I last heard his voice.
I miss him, a lot.
Kadang-kadang rindu, then marah, then rindu, then bengang, then rindu, then dapat feeling 'I am so going to kill him sebab buat aku macam ni!', then rindu balik. Grr.

2. I was about to write about something. Then I yawned. All of a sudden everything dissapears. Heh.

Good night.

principles

Forgive and forget.
Don't assume and presume.

That, I hold on to.

****

Oh shiznit, it's happening again.

I got to know something that I don't want to know.

I introduced my friend to another friend and they got into a relationship. I don't know how the relationship went on because I don't meddle in their affairs but as I see it, its not smooth sailing, maybe a bit stormy. But ah well, no relationships are perfect. Not in the eye of other people.

However.

I got to know that the guy, is hmmm currently wooing another girl. Heh.

To me, if you don't like the girlfriend anymore, tell her straight. If you feel like its not working, break it up. Do not let her feel useless and toy with her emotions. She is not perfect I know, but who is?
And who am I to be dissapointed if it doesn't work out with you guys. I am just a friend.
Just a friend.

So yeah, decide and do not be so indecisive.
Karma works in a very discreet way.

So tell me, as a friend, should I tell her, tell him or just shut it?

But she'll be dissapointed if she know I knew.
But ah well, I still believe that relationships between a couple are beyond the control of friends.

Random. I know.

****

30 days and the boyfriend will be back.
Woot.
I miss him like crazehhh.

high school drama

Why can't a girl and a boy be close friends and not have the people around them judge?

Come on, we are not 21 anymore.
We are not naive anymore.
We know our limits.
We know ourselves best.
We are not living in kampungs for god's sake.

Why oh why must they judge?

Funny huh.
Ay, funny!

And one more thing, if you have problems with me, have the courage to talk to me upfront. Do not, I repeat, DO NOT talk behind my back and tell-tell.

Oh don't worry I am certainly not mad but hmmm what's that word again? Dissapointed. But ah well, I am old enough to handle high school drama.

p/s: If you want things not to be awkward, just don't talk about it with me ok dear. :)

on the bed

I'm eating Maggi's Hotcup Tomyam. On the bed with sleepy eyes but so adamant to update, even for a little bit. Heh.

I don't know what I feel right now. Its like I am in an unknown and unfamilliar teritory and its killing me, but excites me as well to know what the outcome will be at the end of the day.

Too much surrounding me, I don't even know which story to be written.
Gosh.

I think I am ready to go to sleep, after I clean my room.

Good nite.