down in here

Sometimes I feel like there's just this huge knot in my gutt. Waiting to explode.
There's just so many things to do, yet so little time. And it does not help that I have this stupid stupid procrastinate attitude in me. I need to change. I just have to.

I feel so weak. This is not me. I bounce back everytime I am down but this time I feel like I just want to curl down there. I need to bounce back. Gah.

God, please give me the strength to survive each and every day here.